Schauer Thoughts

Welcome to Schauer Thoughts, this episode we’re taking a long and winding journey through the land of loss and grief. I do appreciate everyone’s patience as this episode is going out Thursday - I sincerely hope you enjoy it.

I would also like to take the time to thank everyone who’s been so kind to me, we are strangers and the internet can be so cruel, but you guys haven’t been. I know sad comments get me down sometimes but I also see the kind messages and those have profoundly impacted me. I am grateful for y’alls kindness, support, and even just your time. I hope nothing but good things for each and every one of you - if you are grieving, please do not rush yourself, but know that there are options to “unstick,” even just for a moment. I am sending all the positive vibes I can muster and I can’t wait to chat next week.

Also, no pressure, but if you’d like to see me do stand up, this is the link for the show! I’m nervous but excited and can’t wait to get back into in-person comedy.

Toxic Thoughts Stand Up Event Link

https://www.eventbrite.com/e/toxic-thots-a-queer-comedy-show-tickets-1997497195884?aff=oddtdtcreator

Sources:

The Tragedy of North Birmingham

https://www.propublica.org/article/bluestone-jim-justice-north-birmingham

Birmingham, AL Superfund

https://semspub.epa.gov/work/04/11121096.pdf

Opinion Article: The body does not keep the score: trauma, predictive coding, and the restoration of metastability

https://www.frontiersin.org/journals/systems-neuroscience/articles/10.3389/fnsys.2026.1812957/full

Hydraulic brain: Body motion linked to fluid movement in the brain

https://medicalxpress.com/news/2026-04-hydraulic-brain-body-motion-linked.html

Vagus Nerve Gut Signals Drive Spatial Memory

https://neurosciencenews.com/vagus-nerve-gut-signals-memory-31135/

My TikTok on “Reason vs Excuse”

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTDRHrue6/

Lol quoting myself as a source but I did say I would link the Tiktok because the gestures and point are easier to communicate visually.

Attentional failures after sleep deprivation are locked to joint neuromuscular, pupil and cerebrospinal fluid flow dynamics

https://www.nature.com/articles/s41593-025-02098-8

I do apologize for misspeaking on the ADHD and CSF flow dynamics, this was about sleep deprivation but honestly *concerning ADHD and attention switching* this should be something our (as I do have ADHD) community should look into further. I think sleep is important for everyone, absolutely, but this point really drives home the importance of sleep for everyone with attention difficulties.

Books:

Geometry of Grief: Reflections, Mathematics, Loss, and Life - Michael Frame

Flow: The Psychology of Optimal Experience - Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi

Queer Expressions: Expressive Art and Somatic Therapy Practices for Healing Body Trauma - Wednesdae Reim Ifrach, REAT, ATR-BC, CLAT

This Is What It Sounds Like: A Legendary Producer Turned Neuroscientist on Finding Yourself Through Music - Susan Rogers and Ogi Ogas

To learn more about your default mode network and music preferences, I highly recommend this book. It’s incredible and I chose it last year for book club and everyone seemed to like it.

The Story Grid: What Good Editors Know - Shawn Coyne

I really recommend this book for anyone writing a novel, I haven’t written one myself but I was at a script reading one time and the author (who was speaking) was asked about what book helped them write their story and they said “The Story Grid” and *with just how they were hyping it up* and the murmurs of agreeance from the room, I think it may be an industry favorite. But of course, this is just a recommendation, no pressure.

Bargaining for Advantage: Negotiation Strategies for Reasonable People - G. Richard Shell

This book has nothing to do with grief, it is written more for business negotiations, but at the time of picking it up I was in a “mental economy” (and very literal thinking) autism headspace. It’s an unconventional read for grief but it did help me and is currently helping me with the “bargaining” stage.

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Welcome back to Schauer Thoughts, this week we’re continuing our discussion of the Disability Rights Movement - we’re covering the late 80’s, 90’s, and where we’re at today! There’s so much going on concerning Disability Rights but I hope what’s covered here, as well as all the resources discussed and linked below, fill your soul with some semblance of hope for the future. I do feel incredibly hopeful and I’m also incredibly determined and ready to keep applying pressure to this administration, directly or indirectly (we truly can do both.)

That being said, please also visit this website to stay up to dat on all anti-trans bills currently being introduced across the country.

2026 Anti-Trans Bills Tracker

https://translegislation.com/

Thank you all so much for listening and joining me in this discussion, it’s incredibly important that we remain informed and engaged on all topics concerning civil rights as none of us are free until we are all free.

Also, apologies for the late upload, I have had a lot going on. Thank you for your patience.

Books:

Disability Pride: Dispatches from a Post-ADA World - Ben Mattlin

Every Living Creature: How Xenotransplantation Will Change Our Lives - Joshua D. Mezrich, MD

A Silent Fire - Shilpa Revella

Phenology - Theresa M. Crimmins

Most Delicious Poison - Noah Whiteman

Doctored: Fraud, Arrogance, and Tragedy in the Quest to Cure Alzheimer’s- Charles Piller

Frostbite - Nicola Twilley

A History of Transgender Medicine - Carolyn Wolf-Gould, Dallas Denny, Jamison Green, Kyan Lynch, Editors

Sources:

The Movement for Disability Rights and Justice

https://www.aapd.com/movement/

Disability Rights Timeline

https://disabilities.temple.edu/resources/disability-rights-timeline

Medicalization and Social Control - Peter Conrad

https://www.researchgate.net/publication/234838406_Medicalization_and_Social_Control

The Shifting Engines of Medicalization

https://www.researchgate.net/publication/7869537_The_Shifting_Engines_of_Medicalization

Medicalization and the New Civil Rights

https://review.law.stanford.edu/wp-content/uploads/sites/3/2020/05/Konnoth-72-Stan.-L.-Rev.-1165.pdf

What’s Going on With Disability Programs in the President’s Budget?

https://www.ndrn.org/resource/fy27budgetcuts/

Why Medicaid Matters for Americans Living With Disabilities

https://modernmedicaid.org/why-medicaid-matters-for-americans-living-with-disabilities/

“Abandoned by Border Patrol”: Blind Refugee in Buffalo Dies in the Cold; Family Demands Answers

https://www.democracynow.org/2026/2/27/nurul_amin_shah_alam

Disability Resources - Employment:

Ability Jobs - Job Board for Disability Talent

https://abilityjobs.com/

National Disability Institute

https://www.nationaldisabilityinstitute.org/

Career One Stop - Career Exploration, Training & Jobs

https://www.careeronestop.org/

Evenbreak - Job Board for Disabled Candidates

https://www.evenbreak.com/

Cambiando Vidas - Organizing Immigrants and Latinx People with Disabilities

https://www.accessliving.org/get-involved/join-a-community-organizing-group/cambiando-vidas/

Disability Solutions

https://www.disabilitytalent.org/

Job Accommodation Network (JAN)

https://askjan.org/a-to-z.cfm

Disability Resources - Research, Legal, Caregiving

New Disabled South

https://newdisabledsouth.org/

Disability Rights Education & Defense Fund

https://dredf.org/

Center for Parent Information & Resources

https://www.parentcenterhub.org/

The Lurie Institute for Disability Policy

https://heller.brandeis.edu/lurie/about/index.html

The Sick Times

https://thesicktimes.org/

CARE - Caring Across Generations Network

https://caringacross.org/

Caring Future

https://www.caringfutures.org/

Caregiver Action Network

https://www.caregiveraction.org/

Disability Scoop

https://www.disabilityscoop.com/politics/
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Welcome to Schauer hour, I hope you’re ready to hear my thoughts lol. This week (and next) we’ll be discussing major milestones and events that happened and continue to happen during the Disability Rights Movement.

I do have to apologize in advance as *I am autistic* and *we do talk about autism* and *I am allowed to cry.* I realize emotions are just a natural part of being human but when I cry my voice gets quieter and becomes generally hard to hear, so next week I will enunciate better or take a moment to collect myself.

I can’t wait to share more next time as I didn’t even make it to the passing of the ADA! But we will get there. I hope you enjoy and can’t wait to chat next week.

Books:

Disability Pride: Dispatches From a Post-ADA World - Ben Mattlin

How Emotions Are Made - Lisa Feldman Barrett

Between Us: How Cultures Create Emotions - Batja Mesquita

Descartes Error - Antonio Damasio

Infected: How Power, Politics, and Privilege Use Science Against the World’s Most Vulnerable - Muhammad H. Zaman

Frostbite: How Refrigeration Changed Our Food, Our Planet, and Ourselves - Nicola Twilley

Doctored: Fraud, Arrogance, and Tragedy in the Quest to Cure Alzheimer’s - Charles Piller

The Palestine Laboratory - Antony Loewenstein

Plastic: The Secret History and Shocking Future of Big Oil’s Biggest Bet - Beth Gardiner

A Silent Fire: The Story of Inflammation, Diet, and Disease - Shilpa Ravella

An Elegant Defense: The Extraordinary New Science of the Immune System - Matt Richtel

Sources & Resources:

Trump’s action signal a move toward institutionalizing people with disabilities, advocates warn

https://www.pbs.org/newshour/politics/trumps-actions-signal-a-move-toward-institutionalizing-people-with-disabilities-advocates-warn

History of Disability Rights Milestones and Laws

https://www.americanbar.org/groups/diversity/disabilityrights/about_us/timeline/

The Trump Administration Aims to Penalize Disabled Adults Who Live with Their Families

https://www.propublica.org/article/trump-social-security-ssi-disability-benefits-cuts-parents-children

Lomax’s Matrix: Disability, Solidarity, and the Black Power of 504

https://dsq-sds.org/article/id/1086/

Worth Repeating: Ed Roberts’ 504 Sit-In Victory Rally Speech

https://ollibean.org/ed/

A History of Institutions for People with Disabilities: Neglect, Abuse, and Death

https://sites.uab.edu/humanrights/2023/10/25/a-history-of-institutions-for-people-with-disabilities-neglect-abuse-and-death/

Fairness of Reagan’s Cutoffs of Disability Aid Questioned

https://www.nytimes.com/1982/05/09/us/fairness-of-reagan-s-cutoffs-of-disability-aid-questioned.html?eafs_enabled=false

AIDS blood tests for ‘insurability’

https://cdnc.ucr.edu/?a=d&d=SWTN19880818.1.18&srpos=46&e=------198-en--20--41--txt-txIN-Insurance+companies+mental+health-------

Disability Resources

https://www.disabilityresources.org/

The website I mention at the end with a pretty substantial amount of disability resources!

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Well guys, it’s been a heck of a week - apologies for getting this out somewhat late, my brain is *egg of frying pan sound.* I know you all can understand.

Be prepared! I learn some neuroscience and immunology today because it’s a ~fully body~ Schauer this week, ayo! I’d like to thank my parents for bestowing me with a last name rife with self-branding related puns.

I appreciate you all! Chat next week!

Books:

A Silent Fire: The Story of Inflammation, Diet & Disease - Shilpa Ravella

(Transplant Gastroenterologist)

Most Delicious Poison: The Story of Nature’s Toxins - from Spices to Vices - Noah Whiteman

(Evolutionary Biologist)

The Human Brain Book: A Visual Guide to Structure & Function - Rita Carter

(Science & Medicine Writer)

Behave: The Biology of Humans at Our Best and Worst - Robert M. Sapolsky

(Neuroscientist & Primatologist)

Why We Sleep: Unlocking the Power of Sleep and Dreams - Matthew Walker, PhD

(Prof. of Neuroscience & Psychology)

An Elegant Defense: The Extraordinary New Science of the Immune System - Matt Richtel

(Pulitzer Prize Winning Writer for NYT)

Organ Speak: What It Really Means to Listen to Our Bodies - Guilia Enders

(Physician, Microbiologist, Author)

The Mind-Gut Connection: How the Hidden Conversations Within Our Bodies Impact Our Mood, Our Choices, and Our Overall Health - Emeran Mayer, MD

(Gastroenterologist & Educator)

Clean: The New Science of Skin and the Beauty of Doing Less - James Hamblin, MD, MPH

(Preventative Medicine Specialist)

Believe it or not, I got most of my soap information from this book (I also used the ‘Natural saponins’ link below) - it’s mainly about hygiene and the cosmetic industry ripping everyone off but it did also teach me how to make soap.

Also, most of the sources from this episode are from the books I’ve read over the years, if there’s information you can’t find linked below, it has come from a book listed above. I put everyone’s occupations to narrow down what book it’s likely from.

Online Sources:

Good News - Attorney General James Sues Some of Nation’s Largest Chemical Companies Over Toxic Pollution from Consumer Products

https://ag.ny.gov/press-release/2026/attorney-general-james-sues-some-nations-largest-chemical-companies-over-toxic

Researchers discover the eye’s hidden cleanup system

https://medicalxpress.com/news/2026-07-eye-hidden-cleanup.html

Macrophages in the artery wall ‘smell’ their surroundings

https://www.lji.org/news-events/news/post/macrophages-in-the-artery-wall-smell-their-surroundings/

Cells That ‘Taste’ Danger Set Off Immune Responses

https://www.quantamagazine.org/tuft-cells-that-taste-danger-set-off-immune-responses-20191115/

Natural saponins and macrophage polarization: Mechanistic insights and therapeutic perspectives in disease management

https://www.frontiersin.org/journals/pharmacology/articles/10.3389/fphar.2025.1584035/full

Inflammation Forces Brain Stem Cells to Halt Neurogenesis

https://neurosciencenews.com/inflammation-neurogenesis-31011/

Inhaling high-dose CO2 clears Alzheimer’s proteins from the brain

https://www.newscientist.com/article/2580471-inhaling-high-dose-co2-clears-alzheimers-proteins-from-the-brain/

Genetic variation across the human olfactory receptor repertoire alters odor perception

https://www.pnas.org/doi/10.1073/pnas.1804106115

Comparative Toxicogenomics Database

https://ctdbase.org/

This is just the think to the genetics database I’ve been using, for all the genes I mention just type them into the search and *voila*

Free Newspaper Archive:

UCR | California Digital Newspaper Collection

https://cdnc.ucr.edu/

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Can you all tell that I’m fed up? Welcome back to the Schauer Thoughts, this week we’re going to be a real pain in the behind to some massive corporations and *of course* the government - they have TRULY deserved this.

For too long the healthcare system has proposed a “pull yourself up by your bootstraps” approach to health and wellness, but I ask y’all this, if it doesn’t work for the economy, why would it work for your health?

Is that to say that we should all give up completely and stop taking care of ourselves? No. However, I am saying that we need to cut ourselves, everyone, neighbors, friends, etc. A LOT of slack. We are living in a polluted, corrupt hellscape and there’s only so much one can do to fight constant, all-consuming, non-consensual toxins.

Eat what you want, be who you want, stick it to the man, have some semblance of fun.

Books:

Paradise Falls - Keith O’Brien

Ten Drugs - Thomas Hager

A Silent Fire - Shilpa Ravella

Seed Money - Bartow J. Elmore

Healing the Land Teaches Us Who We Are - Maceo Carrillo Martinet, PhD

The Making of DSM-III - Hannah Decker

Bleed - Tracey Lindeman

The Wahls Protocol - Terry Wahls, MD - For a lot of the information on Vitamin D3, I got from this book - pages 324 - 331.

Community Supported Agriculture (CSA)

https://www.countyhealthrankings.org/strategies-and-solutions/what-works-for-health/strategies/community-supported-agriculture-csa

Online Resources for Food and Sustainability

https://sustainablefoodprocessing.cals.iastate.edu/online-resources-food-and-sustainability

Sources:

Corporate Research Project

https://www.corp-research.org/home-page

UCSF - University of California San Francisco - Industry Documents Library

https://www.industrydocuments.ucsf.edu/home/

Inflammation Forces Brain Stem Cells to Halt Neurogenesis

https://neurosciencenews.com/inflammation-neurogenesis-31011/

Bacteria Turn Toxic Uranium Into a Surprisingly Stable Compound

https://scitechdaily.com/bacteria-turn-toxic-uranium-into-a-surprisingly-stable-compound/

Who Tests the Product-Testing Labs?

https://www.nytimes.com/1983/05/22/weekinreview/who-tests-the-product-testing-labs.html?eafs_enabled=false

How the EPA and the Pentagon Downplayed a Growing Toxic Threat

https://www.propublica.org/article/how-the-epa-and-the-pentagon-downplayed-toxic-pfas-chemicals

Diagnostic Patterns of Family Physicians for Somatoform, Depressive, and Anxiety Disorders (1983)

https://cdn-uat.mdedge.com/files/s3fs-public/jfp-archived-issues/1983-volume_16-17/JFP_1983-09_v17_i3_diagnostic-patterns-of-family-physicians.pdf

Defense Environmental Restoration Program

https://www.denix.osd.mil/derp/

Historical Summary - Times Beach, Missouri

https://cdn.toxicdocs.org/XO/XOyxbB3DMBedVoKqZBroRnEMK/XOyxbB3DMBedVoKqZBroRnEMK.pdf

New Study Analyzes Burden of Endometriosis

https://www.endonews.com/new-study-analyzes-burden-of-endometriosis

Study is cited within the EndoNews article.

Drug Firm Consolidation Roche to acquire Syntex for $5.3 Billion

https://pubs.acs.org/doi/10.1021/cen-v072n019.p004

Roche Diagnostics: Value-based purchasing

https://diagnostics.roche.com/global/en/healthcare-transformers/article/value-based-procurement-healthcare.html

Afghanistan Uranium Mining: 2025 Opportunities & Risks

https://farmonaut.com/mining/afghanistan-uranium-mining-2025-opportunities-risks

Uranium in Niger

https://world-nuclear.org/information-library/country-profiles/countries-g-n/niger

Uranium Glass - A Guide to Art Deco Uranium Glass

https://www.artdeco1930.com/uranium-glass-guide/

Depleted Uranium

https://www.epa.gov/radtown/depleted-uranium

Health Effects of Particulate Uranium Exposure

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC9610560/

Endocrine Disruptors: Focus on the Adrenal Cortex

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC10764154/

Emerging health risks and underlying toxicological mechanisms of uranium contamination: Lessons from the past two decades

https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S0160412020320626#s0100

Endothelial Dysfunction, Erectile Dysfunction, and Coronary Heart Disease: The Pathophysiologic and Clinical Linkage

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC1502382/

Uncoupled glycerol-3-phosphate shuttle in kidney cancer reveals that cytosolic GPD is essential to support lipid synthesis

https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S1097276523002137

Cytochrome c oxidase deficiency accelerates mitochondrial apoptosis by activating ceramide synthase 6

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC4385940/

Vitamin D Receptor is Necessary for Mitochondrial Function and Cell Health

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC6032156/

Association between vitamin D and endometriosis among American women: National Health and Nutrition Examination Survey

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC10786361/

Barbara McClintock and the Discovery of Jumping Genes (Transposons)

https://www.nature.com/scitable/topicpage/barbara-mcclintock-and-the-discovery-of-jumping-34083/

Human Health Toxicity Assessment of GenX Chemicals

https://www.epa.gov/chemical-research/human-health-toxicity-assessments-genx-chemicals

DuPont Deepwater Works

https://www.wsj.com/graphics/waste-lands/site/141-dupont-deepwater-works/?eafs_enabled=false

DuPont’s Decade Long Legacy of Crime: 1980s

https://themeaningofwater.com/2024/03/03/duponts-decades-long-legacy-of-crime-1980s/

-If I forgot any resource, please lmk via IG DM (it’s easiest for me) and I’ll send that over to you. There was just so much so I expect I’ll forget some.
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